What do I need?

People say I’m beautiful,

I wonder why I don’t feel so.

Some say I got a great job,

I don’t think I think so.

Friends keep telling me I am adorable,

I still don’t feel so happy inside,

I am told I am young and life’s waiting for me,

Still why in my mind I sense a divide!

It’s frustrating to know that I can’t feel what I want to feel,

No matter how much I tell me myself, this broken heart doesn’t heal.

Something is missing and I am desperately trying to find,

All I see is a deserted road of life, front and behind.

I am turning to people for comfort who I barely know,

Where’s that one shoulder for a lifetime, where I thought I could always go?

I need that passion again, that zeal, that fire, that soul,

I need my hand to be held, so I can feel whole.

I know now what can make me myself, and help ease this pain,

I need to be loved, and I need to love again...

The Right Time

The tides were high,

the heart was low,

I would walk on the shore barefoot,

and see the waters flow.

I saw his face smiling at me,

from that orange sky above,

my heart then ached to hold his hand,

a tear dropped from the eyes full of love.

I never figured out what went wrong,

what let our lives drift apart,

I wonder why people can’t get second chances,

when it’s not too hard to make a new start.

He said but he can't turn back, and time had passes;

Now life couldn’t be the same way as I see,

i looked into his eyes with the love of a million moments spent alone,

and I said-"Time is always right,

Whenever you want it to be..."

I am alone

Today I'm lost, I've lost myself,

Gone with you is the smile you said you love,

I am searching the reasons, answers to whys,

in the deep dark ocean high above.

I know not what to say and what to tell my eyes-

Who’ve been dry all night, lost all their tears,

I am calling you -"come",

And be there to shed my fears.

The days are getting darker, nights are worse,

Stars have stopped twinkling too,

Loneliness too is losing meaning come back soon,

As long as this heart beats, I'll wait for you...

The Truth

There're times when I close my eyes and yet stare at the open sky,

Looking back at the moments gone and sometimes I just wonder why.

There had been times when I lost to life & faced it with a sigh-

Yet there were times of trivial unexpected victories called 'moments of high'.

I wonder at the feeling of love when his gaze can make her shy,

But I doubt the heart of man when on the streets I see a hungry baby cry.

Do you know how over small issues we worry and make them magnify,

Yet when the real challenge comes to shine out, we just let the moment go passing by.

On the green grass, under the same wide blue sky when I lie,

I just think - are we fit to live,

if we don’t discover for what can we die?

Live or Exist

Is love, hate, wins & losses, all you think about?

Haven't you turned a pleasant boat ride into a mad chase?

Ever wondered who you are and what life is all about?

Just close your eyes, look up at the sky, and feel the raindrops on your face....

Then look at a baby smiling,

And you'll regret every moment spent in hate,

See the way beauty of life unfolds before your eyes,

So trust your heart, and learn to live,

Before it’s too late...

Everything I do

When I see a baby smiling,

Or a blooming rose,

All I think of is what fills our hearts,

And how each day it grows.

When the sun sets, moon starts to shine,

and then darkness starts to fade,

when lonesome someone strolls on the beach,

Just to keep him company, a shadow is made.

Such is the love of a moon that is,

a million miles away,

the thoughts of losing and parting still,

in a corner of heart they stay.

If I’m out of time and I could pick one day,

one moment to live it again as new,

of all the days I've lived this life,

I'd pick the day I first met you.

- Cos if I know today what Love is,

its all because of you...

Every moment that I have lived,

and every breath I'm yet to take-

-is my gift to you,

For love is all I can make.

I'm in a lot of debt in life,

and I don't own a thing,

All I have are the beads of memories,

and you are the string.

When I'm lost in deep, come to me,

and embrace me tight and close,

all I ever need is you so near,

as fragrance to its Rose.

I've vowed to be yours,

this life and again,

Just make me believe you won't go,

with you beside me, months are just moments,

else this life just tends to slow.

I can’t be more sure than that here I am, alive;

Yes, I love you so true,

All I need is your heart for me,

and forgiveness for the mistakes I do.

Cos everything I do...

I do it for You....

Is it Fair

Life is being so unfair and I ask the question, “Why? -

-does it all start with a smile, and end in a sigh...”

All I asked for was a chocolate cake with a cherry on the top,

"Am I sure of it?", oh the question doesn’t even crop.

But life brought me a chocolate brownie, with cream,

Fruits, jellies, nuts and sweet sauce,

With eyes wide open I looked at it and spoke after a long pause -

"Oh but I loved that 'not-so-perfect', that simplicity,

And the feeling at which my heart used to stop,

It doesn’t matter but if life gives me more,

All I wanted was my chocolate cake,

With just a small cherry on the top..."

The Uncertainity

I love it when I am without an umbrella and it starts raining on a sunny day,

Oh this is the beauty of life, when you don't always have a say!

That mystery of the unknown, those crossed fingers, that hope is what is nice,

What fun would it be in knowing it’s a 6,

Before you even throw the dice???

The Black Bird

Sitting by the window, lost in my thoughts,

I saw a little black bird flying in the rain.

Its wings were wet and yet how it danced,

Was there when I wished I was a child again.

Expecting success, longing for love, wishing we had it all,

How long do you think this way the innocence will remain?

Count the sleepless nights you’ve had, the moments you cried and prayed-

When you knew you’d give your life for it, but that was all in vain.

We have had times when we ran so hard to reach that peak dreamt of,

But now look back at the journey you missed, still worth was the gain?

If we keep missing out on the real life around us,

For how long will we be sane?

Now I will live for myself and expect no more, I thought

again today, with my arm resting on the window pane.

This world owes you nothing; it was here before you came,

I’d lost many and I lost much, realized as I went down the memory lane.

Today is a new day, a new sun, a new life,

Today there’s no place in my heart for pain.

If not for that black bird I would not have known,

I thank thee O black bird, and thank you rain…